I'm really vexed now. Lots of decisions to make, lots of things to do, and this is only the start of the year(ok not really).
1) Council
Should I or should I not run for council? I've been thinking about this over the weekends, and although it seems like I've already gotten an answer, somehow I still don't know what to do about this. I wanna run for council cos it just seems so fun, and I'll be able to make so many more friends. The workload was never my concern, cos I believe that if you're passionate about something, the amount of work wouldn't matter at all. Some people may say that council is all saikang, but I beg to differ, and if it really is that way, I must say, I really like doing saikang. It's fun to do all these things for the school and at the same time be able to bond with others. But I'm worried about other stuff. In the first place, I never really thought about joining council until during CMS session last Friday, so while everyone else was looking for a campaign group earlier on, there I was laughing at them and applauding them for their bravery to join council. After all everyone says there are 3 Cs you can't join in Hwachong: Canoeing, Council and Choir. Ok, so I regret it now. I don't have a campaign group, and at this point of time it would be extremely hard to find a group already since most, if not all have found their groups already. And also, I'm afraid of failure. Not failing the interview cos that's not so bad, but more of not being elected. The competition is intense within the faculty, with a whole bunch of people(maybe 50?) fighting for 12 spots or something? I was always not a very high-profile or popular person around school, and in Apollo there are some people that I used to be close with, but now we just share a really awkward relationship. We seem to have not known each other at all. Although a lot of my friends encourage me to join council by saying that they think I can do it and that they'll get my friends to vote for me, but I'm still afraid. If I don't get elected, there's no telling what people are going to be saying behind my back, and that's what I'm most afraid of. I know I need to have faith, but I don't even know if I really want this. Everything about the election process just scares me. I'm not sure I'm brave enough to take this leap of faith. Maybe I am, but at the end of the day, without a campaign group nothing else will matter(and no, I'm not going to campaign alone, I'm not pro enough). Ok so I have about a day left to think about this and if possible, source around for a campaign group. GREAT. GOD PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!
2) CCA
Ok I have to admit, one of the reasons I'm even thinking of joining council is so that I won't have to worry about being stuck in some lousy and boring CCA for one and a half years and completely waste my time. I don't know what CCA to choose, and I have even lesser time to decide on this. So I got through the guitar club interview, but I don't know if I wanna join that, since the standard of the club doesn't seem too good now. I was thinking of canoeing at first, but I don't know if I'm physically and mentally strong enough to be able to do this. Canoeing is fun, but competitive canoeing? I'm not sure I'm up for that... CCA 3 times a week(and that's gonna gradually increase) plus morning runs and everything... And I'm thinking of frisbee as my second CCA, but both guitar and frisbee have trainings on Fridays, so I don't know how that's gonna work out if I join both. GOD PLEASE HELP ME TO DECIDE!!!
3) OCIP
Ok I don't have that much of a problem with this, since I already know that I wanna go to Nepal. But I don't know which one I should choose, the December one or the June one. Everything tells me that I should go for the December one, since 1) blocks are after June hols, 2) I'll have more time to save up since I'm planning to pay for this myself ($900 in 10 months?), and 3) Angie wants to go to Nepal in December too, so I'll have company. But then if I join guitar, and SYF is next year, that means that there's be a lot of practices during the December hols, so I don't know if I can go or not. Ok at least I have until 1st March to think about this, so it's not that bad, but GOD PLEASE HELP ME CHOOSE!!!
Sigh, enough of decision-making. I should just go do my homework first then come back and mull over all these again... D:
